Forced Indifference?

I don't use the term indifference lightly.  I find the crime of indifference to be one of humanities greatest failures.  Yet, right now, I feel trapped in a world so mired in the wrong thing and so clearly choosing to do the simple thing.  Sure, the average people I run into are not out there murdering people, committing violent hate crimes, neglecting children to the point of starvation.  Instead I am surrounded my a lot of very busy looking people who are just trying to survive themselves in a false construct of the new "community" with out the commonality.  Except of course a mass condolence of interference. 

What choice do us average ordinary folks have.  We want the best for our children, but all too often others are telling us what is best because somehow they know better.  Don't get me wrong.  Sometimes they do know better, but in this day in age it is just easier for the "those who know" just to tell us what to do, rather than engage in an open discussion to create a holistic solution. 

Where is all this stemming from you might ask?  I am not sure, but I feel like the world is throwing bricks at me hoping I will wake up enough to catch one rather than just standing around dodging them so that I won't get hit.  So sorry if you happen to be standing behind me and it got you, but hey, I have my own family to look after.  I will admit, I have been way too informed these last few days with being sick.  One story in particular has not been able to escape my attention. 

The story of the blind Chinese Lawyer who is caught between the idea of fleeing or the doom of staying in China to fight literally a "Blind" legal system has sunk in deeply with my conscious.  For me I take this case as a personal attack on my family.  See I have a Chinese child that is a bi product of gross human rights violations.  How "lucky" was Isaac that Chen called attention to forced abortions, that could have been him.  But still, Chen's work was not enough to preserve his family ties.  

There is way too much talk in this about niceties, promises made by the US, made by China, what Chen said in the Embassy, what he later said in the hospital.  For me, just an average ordinary person, it all seems crystal clear.  Every fiber of Chen's being is one of making a difference because he truly does love his country and wants to protect people like my child's birth mother.  Unfortunately the world we live in has given him two choices. 

1.  Stay in China and live in perpetual fear, and certain retaliation and stand up for as long as you can for the little person, but in the meantime risk your own family's lives an your own which would get the littler person no where.

OR

2.  Flee the country and "try" to help from the outside.  Yes, he keeps himself and his family alive, but he knows this will not help his friends, the victims, the next person who dares to stand up for the average and ordinary. 

Of course he is confused and torn.  This world is a really hard place.  My frustration, however, stems for the fact that our desire to make things simple, streamlined, and better is just founded on a faulty premise that more is more.  So here are the big Whys racing through my head:

1.  Why do mothers often have to pay as much as they make to put their children in child care so that they can then afford to take them to the Dr. from all the ills they acquire at child care?
2.  Why do we live so sprawled from our friends and family that we can no longer be in a consistent loving community that supports one another?
3.  Why do we feed our kids foods that hype them up and then insist on giving them drugs to calm them down?
4.  Why do we love placing labels on people but never bother reading the labels on what we put in our body?
5.  Why do we keep little kids off the playground more and more, so that they can "learn" more, but know less?
6.  Why am I as a teacher valued so little, that I can't afford to take my kid to the Doctor even after health insurance?
7.  Why am I running this rat race when I know things can and be so much better?
8.  Why do we assume that because kids are a year older, they are ready to move up in the exact same time and space as their peers?
9.  Why oh Why does the school want my children's original birth certificates and SSN to register them for kindergarten. By the way people it is still illegal to use a persons SSN as an ID number.  Oh and thanks for the video explaining why I need to donate $40 for toxic cleaning supplies because the state does not fund our schools anymore so that we can brag about low taxes.  Guess what people.  That $40 is a tax. 

I could go on and on, but I will stop.  I am sure it is time for news fast, and to feel better, and to get my hands in the dirt.  But, as much as I would like all of that to make it better, I am feeling like the world does not have any green grass right now.  I know, I know, "The grass is greener where you water it."  I guess that is where my tears of frustration might help, but I don't think grass thrives on salt water.