Realizations

So here I sit with the last papers going to the notary this afternoon. From there they will go to translation, then to the Kazakh Embassy in DC. Then to the MOE in Astana, then to a region. After all of those steps we will get THE CALL to travel halfway around the world to meet a child or children who need a family. I know these steps, we have lived these steps before with Emerson's adoption and until yesterday they just felt like steps.

Last night I found myself watching a beautiful video of a child who just came home a few days ago and I found myself brought to tears as the song playing said "how long do you want to be loved? Is forever enough?" For some reason at that point I was snapped back to a very real place and remembered that our child is alive, there in a baby house.

I am comforted in knowing that they are out of harms way as the people at the baby houses and the preschools truly love and care for the children. I do wonder what let our child to there, does he/she know that soon a family will open their arms, heart and home to him or her? I nievly want to dare ask if it will be hard for them to make the transition. Of course I know intellectually that because the child will be older (3-6 years) that it will be rough, confusing, scary and exciting all at the same time.

So little one, who ever you may be, please know that there is a Mama, Papa and brother that think of you every day. Right now all that stands in the way are papers, forms, notaries and thousands of miles. It feels overwhelming but we will take it one step at a time. For now you are probably in bed as it is night time in Kazakhstan, so sleep tight and dream of a forever family.